This is the 1155th time I’ll speak to you from this forum, and the last. Know that it is with a heavy heart I type these, the last words I will ever record. I need not be reminded of the oath forsworn, short days ago, that the unsuccessful conclusion of my run would perforce coincide with the ineluctable conclusion of my life.
I know more than some see me as a naught but a nuisance, a bother, and I am pleased to think that I shall be able to free those from any further effects of my presence, though I fear it is at a cost which will give pain to my friends. I have already explained to you, however, that my career here has in any case reached its crisis, and that no possible conclusion could be more congenial to me than this. Indeed, if I may make a full confession to you, I was quite convinced that my effort would be rejected, and I allowed its submission under the persuasion that some development of this sort would follow.
My friends, no one, not in my situation, can appreciate my feeling of sadness at this parting. To this site, and the kindness of its members, I owe everything. Here I have lived a quarter of a decade, and have passed from a boy to a man. Here my dreams have been born, and one is buried. But I never forgot, how oft we tremble in the frost to catch snowflakes, on nose, or lash, or lips, knowing they must melt.
I take my leave of you with these simple words: remember me, and pray believe me to be, my dear friends,
......Very sincerely yours,
............xebra
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